Goodbye - Secondhand Serenade

It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Maybe I'm to blame
Or maybe were the same
But either way I can't breathe
Either way I can't breathe

All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way

I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive
Cause everything we've been through
And everything about you
Seemed to be a lie
A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by

All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way
All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way

And every, everything isn't only
What it seemed so hold these
Words that you never told me
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Goodbye

Bye

Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

dari awal semua memang salahku...
kenapa aku begitu sulit untuk 'menolak' dan berkata 'tidak' ...
sudah berapa orang yg hatinya kusakiti?
sudah berapa orang yg kecewa padaku?
sudah berapa orang yg kubuat menangis?
dan sudah berapa kali aku meminta maaf....?
ya,
aku memang egois...
aku memang pendusta...
aku memang pembohong...
aku memang jahat...
aku tdk pantas berada didekat orang2 yg kusayangi itu...
aku sudah mengingkari semua janjiku kepada mereka...
aku sudah melukai perasaan mereka...
dari awal, aku sudah menyadari ini...
tapi aku 'terlambat' untuk mengubahnya...
kini yang tersisa hanyalah penyesalan...
dan apa yg bisa kulakukan?
semuanya sudah terlanjur terjadi...
semua memang salahku...
salahku...
kalian boleh melupakanku, menganggap seolah-olah aku tak pernah ada...
aku tidak pantas mengucapkan 'jangan lupakan aku' sambil berbuat jahat seperti itu...
entah iblis macam apa aku ini...
aku pantas dimaki,
aku pantas dibenci,
dan aku sama sekali tidak pantas dipuji... apalagi disayang...
padahal aku ingin dianggap baik, tp kenapa jadi begini?
apa yang bisa kulakukan sekarang?
bagaimana caranya menebus semua kesalahanku?
mungkin aku harus membuang semua kebahagiaanku,
merelakan orang2 yang kucintai,
menelantarkan sahabatku,
terus menerus menahan tangisan sambil mencoba untuk tersenyum dan tertawa...
meski itu sama saja dengan membunuh diri sendiri...

cinta itu aneh

tak dapat dilihat, tapi bisa dirasakan...

memberi sejuta kenangan indah, tapi memberikan kenangan buruk diakhirnya...

digenggam erat akan mati, digenggam lemah malah pergi...

Stay Close, Don't Go - Secondhand Serenade

I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
Is it half empty?
Have I ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
But look through that and you will see,
That I'll do better.
I know, baby I can do better.

[Chorus]
If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
Amazed how I somehow managed to,
Sweep you off of your feet girl,
Your perfect little feet girl,
I took for granted what you do,
But I'll do better.
I know, baby I can do better.

[Chorus]
If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.

And don't you know,
My heart is pumping,
Oh, it's putting up the fight.
And I've got this feeling,
That everything's alright.
Don't you see?
I'm not the only one for you,
But you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone.

[Chorus]
If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.
Don't leave me tonight.

Why - Secondhand Serenade

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

Bila Hari Esok...

Bila tak ada hari esok untuk kita...
Apakah kita masih dapat merasakan kebahagiaan ini?
Apakah kita masih dapat tersenyum seperti hari ini?
Akankah hari ini terulang kembali...?

Bila tak ada hari esok untuk kita...
Kemanakah perginya kenangan yang telah kita lalui selama ini?
Apakah kita masih dapat berjumpa lagi?
Akankah kau selalu mengingatku...?

Bila tak ada hari esok untuk kita...
Nikmatilah setiap detiknya dihari ini...
Tersenyumlah selalu, dan...
Rasakan betapa indahnya hari ini....

... Dan bila hari esok benar - benar tak ada untuk kita...
Berjanjilah untuk selalu mengingat hari ini,
karena hari ini....
'tak akan terulang lagi dikemudian hari....

- Glory Athena -

ternyata susah sekali menahan air mata sambil menahan rasa sakit yg tak tertahankan dan memaksakan diri untuk tersenyum...

harapanku ditahun 2011 ini :

>> makin  pinter
>> makin berguna
>> gambar ama lukisan makin bagus
>> bikin ortu bahagia
>> ga pelupa lagi
>> ga males lagi
>> banyak liburnya
>> hp baru
>> headphone baru
>> lappie baru
>> makin disayang sama org2 yg kusayangi

New Year

kemarin malam, petasannya indah sekali~ ^-^ perasaan campur aduk... senang tapi sedih.. (._.) terus bawaannya ngantuk melulu... Tahun baruan malah dirumah aja.. tidur. *pemalas*